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Welcome Friends Life, Passion, Thoughts and Views	Friday, January 30, 2009, 11:26 PM You This has been a turbelent week for me. An emotional rollercoster ride . I don"t know why but I have become so emotionally dependent . My emotions correlate with his actions . Maybe , the feelings heighten due to time . Lately , it has started to really dawn on me that time is running out. I am sorry . I am sorry . I can't help but to expect too much . I can't help it . I just can't . When your actions surprise me , it makes me feel inadequate . I feel like I still don't know you enough . What am I suppose to feel ? We only have a few more weeks . I need to gather as many memories as possible . Happy ones , preferably . I know it should come naturally , and we do have lots of memories together . Nevertheless , I am scared that it is not enough . I am very scared of that . Will we ever be this close again ? You can't give the answer . I can't give the answer . No one can . Time will tell . Will I ever be strong enough to face it ? I need to know . I need to know . I need to know to get me through . I don't need you to tell it to me . I need you to show me . I beg you to show me . I plead you to show me . Through the littlest things to the largest of things . I can't afford subtlety right now . I need to see it . As clear as possible . I need certainty . Tell me . Show me . In any way . I always feel like I am not showing enough . Whenever it's subtle , I worry that you fail to read between the lines . Whenever it's clear , I wonder if it's clear enough . You are my pillar of strength in life . Without you , I'll crumble to pieces . Wednesday, January 28, 2009, 8:27 PM Dreams We were talking about wet dreams at the dinner table . hahaha....it was funny . not so embarassing . more funny . faris and his funny honest stories . hahaha.....chyna? hahaha.... got to give you credit for that . p/s : like a clown . Saturday, January 17, 2009, 12:35 AM Farewells I hate farewells . But yet again I have to face it . We always say that things will remain eventhough we're gonna be apart . We know we say all those things just to make us feel better . It's a fact that things will change . I've experienced it . It hurts . It etched a scar in my heart . To part with you is like tearing my heart open and let it bleed . I don't know if I'll ever recover . Seriously you changed my life . In my life I've only loved 2 person . One in my high school and now , YOU . I can't bear thinking of the day we'll part . It scares me . I can't do this anymore . Friday, January 02, 2009, 12:17 AM Twilight Harini , i g tgk Twilight . I'd say that it's one of my all time favourite movie . I cried watching the movie . It's very touching . Seriously I'm not kidding . I could really connect to the movie . The whole idea of the movie is relatable to me . It's a love story between a vampire and a mortal . Basically , they are in love but they know that they can't be together . Initially they tried to resist each other , but in the end their love is just too strong to be ignored . Hurm...teh whole idea that u sayang each other but cannot be together breaks my heart . I tahu dalam situasi I inilah hakikatnya . I sangat2 sayang you , but it can never happen . It never will . I know this frem the beginning . It's my fault , that I let myself got carried away . Biarlah I dapat rasa a bit of the joy and sweetness . Even though I have to face a lot of bitterness and pain , to just taste a bit of love , it's worth it . Nothing can replace the memory of you and me. You mean a lot to me . Sangat sangat banyak . I don't know how to express it . Tapi I tahu I takkan mampu bagitau u semua ini . It will just end everything . The fragile relationship that we have right now . One of the scene yang I ingat is the scene where they were just lying on the grass gazing into each other's eyes . How I wish it was me and you . And the scene where the girl was sleeping in the hero's arm . How I wish it was you and me . How I wish . Every single night . How I wish . I sangat2 berharap itulah kita . Tapi I know that semua tu hanyalah anganan . Ianya takkan berlaku . It will never happen . When Edward asked Bella to leave the town for her own good , I just couldnt help myself from crying . It's just too much . If you ever say that to me , I don;t know how I will ever take it . You are my strength right now . I sangat-sangat sayang you . In the end edward did not give in to Bella's request . I know you will never know my feelings for you , but I WILL NEVER STOP LOVING YOU. Thursday, January 01, 2009, 12:04 PM 1st January 2009 Went to watch the fireworks last night . It's spectacular and glamorous . However towards the end of the show , the fireworks became more aggresive . It looked more like a city being bombed . The fireworks were brown and orange . The air looked like as though we were all witnessing a city being bombed . A city being destroyed . How ironic . We were just spectators looking at the destruction . Believe me , it was an eye opener . During that particular period , I was just wondering if somewhere in this world , the 'fireworks' are really happening . I was just standing in the sea of people looking at the display , ushering in the new year . I braved through the cold weather for a few hours ( yet complaining and whining ) , when there are others out there who have to live through the coldness , praying that they'll make it through the night . Moments like these make me reflect upon myself . Who am I? Who do I want to be ? It's time for me to be more concerned about the issue . Broaden my knowledge . I have to find time to do it . The time is up for me to be ignorant on this matter . May Allah protect them and give them strength . 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